He makes me do this alot! ^_^
For the first time, I am in a relationship where I can truly be myself . . . and not be the only one doing it!
I'm not exactly normal, possibly the furthest from it. When I'm excited and happy, I make strange noises, do random things and have little dances to music no one but me can hear. In all my past relationships, this has been frowned upon. I was never encouraged to do it and even looked down upon for doing it and so would have to bottle it up.
But now?
I feel free! I can do it and not be worried about what everyone else thinks, about whether I'm emabarrassing him or something. Instead he encourages it and even joins in! He feeds my passion for being unique, spontaneous and creative. Everything that I adore in life. Just thinking about him makes me want to smile and laugh, thinking of all the times we've just cuddled in bed, chatting away and making silly noises, reinacting scenes of films we like, talking in so many different accents! I have never known a relationship to be so much fun! To an extent that I could cry. And I can talk to him about anything and everything! I feel truly comfortable and open to tell him whatever I'm thinking or feeling. I feel free to really be me! In my life choices, in my clothes, in my opinions, in my feelings, in my beliefs, in my weird interests, in my mind, to just be myself!
Before, I have always had to hide something. The trust was never there because I still had secrets. Graham - couldn't tell him anything, I just quivered in fear. Shaun - Couldn't tell him how I truly felt, I didn't like him spoiling me. Ian - hated his smoking. Jonny - He didn't care what I had to say anyway. Rob - He didn't like tattoos or Tarot.
In each one, there was a problem that couldn't be resolved. It was just differences in personality.
But this . . .
This is insane! No one should have that much of a connection with just one person! We're both aquarians too! Now I know some people are gonna think I'm REAL LAME for this but I find it incredible! He was born on the first day of Aquarius and I was born on the last day! We're both creative, musically minded with a wide range of tastes. Some people will think that if we like the same things, the relationship will be boring. But that's not us. We're so outgoing, random, crazy and (once again) Spontaneous that not a single moment is boring!
I think I'm blabbing too much now.
But I just feel like, if I don't get it out, it's all gonna burst out my chest like Alien did. There is so much I want us to do together, places to go together. Its like I want to take his hand and drag him everywhere like a poor kid with his shopaholic mother! Only, not in the same concept.
We are solid.
I think we will go far! :)
