Well after my last rant, I feel much better. I think it was time that "thing" was over and done with.
Onto other news, I feel like I should be doing more with my life. Such as . . . PLAY COD:MW2!!!
Lollage.
I am currently at Nathan's while he packs the car with his kit ready for practice tonight.
Lately I've been having . . . visions? Or what you might call De Ja Vu. But I've been having it to an extreme. Everytime it happens, in the vision I want to say "Ooh, I've done this already" but then when it comes to it, I'm about to say it, and don't. I change what I dreamed. Now, for those who don't know, my dad broke his neck 2 hours into our holiday in Corfu back in May. He's fine but had to wear a neck brace for 8 months. What I don't remember is the dream I had about it. I had told my mum 2 weeks before we went to Corfu, that I had had a vision of my dad sat in the computer chair with a neck brace on. And I didn't know what it meant. I then totally forgot about it and it wasn't til couple of months ago that my mum told my dad what I had dreamt. He then shouted at me for not telling him else he'd have been more careful! But how was I supposed to know?!
Anyway, point being is that I'm starting to freak myself out. I freaked Nathan out a little last night when we were watching Drop Dead Fred and I said, "I've already seen this with you" and he looked totally confused as he had never seen Drop Dead Fred before. I had dreamt it.
My dad is convinced that I have some sort of psychic ability, if you believe in that kind of thing, as his dad used to read tea leaves until he saw 3 peoples deaths and all 3 died exactly a month after they were read. So he stopped. On top of that I do tarot also and all my readings with my blessed and smudged deck have all come out pretty acurate.
Anyway, must dash to practice!
Tally ho!
Tuesday 10 November 2009
Monday 9 November 2009
WHY THE FUCK WHY
I really and truly can't fucking believe how stupid I am.
I predicted what she'd do if one of us apologised and that she'd glorify it. So what did I do? I tried to apologise so that it would be easier for him to get along with her so it wouldn't be so awkward as I thought we'd might as well all be friendly about it.
What did she do?
FUCKING THREW IT BACK IN MY FACE BY GLORIFYING IT TO HIM!!!! MAKING IT SOUND AS IF SHE WAS THE ADULT AND SHE WAS THE ONE MORE MATURE THAN ME!!!
WHY THE FUCK DID I NOT LISTEN TO MY OWN FUCKING ADVICE AND JUST STICK TO MY GUNS!!!
I didn't think she would change and indeed she didn't!!! I never should have even fucking bothered!! Now I feel sick to my stomache that I even done anything and I really feel like seeing her face to face just so I can wipe that smirk off it with the an old rusty knife and then have the local hobo rub salt into her face so everyone can see the puss and infection that her personality is filled with!!!!
Keep it civil?
Don't trust me?
Said some nasty things?
I told you the fucking truth you stupid little cow cos no one else would!! And if you can't accept that you're no fucking God then maybe you should go bury yourself 6 feet under and see if you can escape that one!!!! Cos I'm gonna be sat on top of it pissing on your grave stone so that one day when it finally reaches you down there, you can drown on it!!!!!!
.Do you think it's got me mad?
Oh I think so.
That's it.
FROM HERE ON IN, I NO LONGER KNOW WHO YOU ARE. I DO NOT RECOGNISE THE NAME. I HAVE NEVER BEEN CLUBBING WITH YOU, I WAS NEVER STOOD UP BY YOU (YOU FUCKING LITTLE BITCH), I NEVER TOOK YOU TO SOUND CIRCUS, I DO NOT KNOW YOUR FACE, YOUR VOICE OR YOUR LAUGH, I DO NOT KNOW WHERE YOU WORK OR WHERE YOU LIVE, I DO NOT KNOW YOUR FAMILY. THE PEOPLE I HAVE MET THROUGH YOU, I HAVE MET THROUGH SOMEONE ELSE. I AM OFFICIALLY ERASING YOU FROM MY MEMORY AND I WILL NOT TAKE NO MORE OF IT.
.They call me the Queen of Revenge cos I was prepared to wait longer than anyone else could, just to get someone back. I once wait 2 years just to slap someone. My chance will come, and I will take it with both hands and destroy you.
I predicted what she'd do if one of us apologised and that she'd glorify it. So what did I do? I tried to apologise so that it would be easier for him to get along with her so it wouldn't be so awkward as I thought we'd might as well all be friendly about it.
What did she do?
FUCKING THREW IT BACK IN MY FACE BY GLORIFYING IT TO HIM!!!! MAKING IT SOUND AS IF SHE WAS THE ADULT AND SHE WAS THE ONE MORE MATURE THAN ME!!!
WHY THE FUCK DID I NOT LISTEN TO MY OWN FUCKING ADVICE AND JUST STICK TO MY GUNS!!!
I didn't think she would change and indeed she didn't!!! I never should have even fucking bothered!! Now I feel sick to my stomache that I even done anything and I really feel like seeing her face to face just so I can wipe that smirk off it with the an old rusty knife and then have the local hobo rub salt into her face so everyone can see the puss and infection that her personality is filled with!!!!
Keep it civil?
Don't trust me?
Said some nasty things?
I told you the fucking truth you stupid little cow cos no one else would!! And if you can't accept that you're no fucking God then maybe you should go bury yourself 6 feet under and see if you can escape that one!!!! Cos I'm gonna be sat on top of it pissing on your grave stone so that one day when it finally reaches you down there, you can drown on it!!!!!!
.Do you think it's got me mad?
Oh I think so.
That's it.
FROM HERE ON IN, I NO LONGER KNOW WHO YOU ARE. I DO NOT RECOGNISE THE NAME. I HAVE NEVER BEEN CLUBBING WITH YOU, I WAS NEVER STOOD UP BY YOU (YOU FUCKING LITTLE BITCH), I NEVER TOOK YOU TO SOUND CIRCUS, I DO NOT KNOW YOUR FACE, YOUR VOICE OR YOUR LAUGH, I DO NOT KNOW WHERE YOU WORK OR WHERE YOU LIVE, I DO NOT KNOW YOUR FAMILY. THE PEOPLE I HAVE MET THROUGH YOU, I HAVE MET THROUGH SOMEONE ELSE. I AM OFFICIALLY ERASING YOU FROM MY MEMORY AND I WILL NOT TAKE NO MORE OF IT.
.They call me the Queen of Revenge cos I was prepared to wait longer than anyone else could, just to get someone back. I once wait 2 years just to slap someone. My chance will come, and I will take it with both hands and destroy you.
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