WTF Seriously?!

If you watch porn with your partner, it's fine. If they watch it without you, its an insult!! WTF!!

Ok I don't quite understand my own trail of thought here and why the fuck it's fucked me off so fucking much!!

I watch porn, I'm not afraid to admit that. He watches it with me, but he'd rather watch our own home videos. Fair enough. Tried to watch other porn with him, didn't do anything for him. Now he's watching it without me and specifically blowjob stuff. WHAT THE FUCK EVER HAPPENED TO "I don't really watch it 'cos I just end up comparing myself to them". And yet blowjobs is the worst one to pick??!?!!?

I don't fucking understand why it's fucked me off.
And that fucks me off even more.

AND THEN THE FACT THAT HE TAKES SO FUCKING LONG TO REPLY TO ME ON MSN JUST GOES TO SHOW HE'S MORE FUCKING INTERESTED IN THAT THAN ME!!!!

I guess its that, that properly fucks me off.

FUUUUUUUUUCCCKKKKK!!!!

Whats the fucking difference whether he watches it with me or not?!?!? Why does it make me feel like shit just cos I'm not there!!!! I'm the one with all the fucking toys and all he's got is his hand so I should let him have his porn for fuck sake!! It's only fair!! I don't even know how he feels about me having toys, and I make it clear to him that I use them when I'm home without him! It's my way of masturbating! In some respect I kinda feel sorry for blokes cos all they have is their hand to help them physically.

Strange, I've reasoned with myself why I have no right to feel such hatred. And yet, a little part of me still wants to smash his face in and end the whole thing.
Not that I would. That little tiny bit of me is ruled out by the other 99.9% of me.

Jealousy and Wrath are a terrible sin.