For The First Of Many - Its Not The Best

As a first post, this is not going to be the best.

Lets start with the one whose currently bugging me the most. Jonny.
He went to a concert last night. One which I was hoping to attend too but couldn't due to work. Last time he went to a concert, he got me a little bracelet. This time, he went with £60, got himself two shirts and me nothing. Considering that I actually wanted to go to this concert, you would've thought he'd at least get me a little something would you not? And for those who dont know, I'm his girlfriend.
At the moment I really don't want to hear about it, about how good it was and stuff. I already feel shit for not going. I have not even been to a concert yet so that one would've been my first. On top of that, it was our 5 month anniversary. Now I know some people are not fussed with these small things but I myself am to an extent where I will say "happy # anniversary" and a response saying "you too babe" if what I usually get. However this time I didn't even get a txt back let alone a response. I feel somewhat alone in this relationship. Like I am the only one who gives a shit about it. For example, Jonny txt me today sayin he missed me, he hadn't said it for quite some time! I was beginning to wonder if he actually remembered me.
Now I know that in some aspects, I am over reacting and really should get over myself and shouldn't be such high maintenence. But I can't help how I feel. On top of that having a mountain of insecurities to deal with every day has to take some tol on me.

Next issue. Friends.
Now I know someone who may read this and will know who I'm on about. Last weekend, I went to Jonny's after college and hung out with him, Tom and Callum. While Jonny and Tom were outside chatting away, Callum decided to be really nice to me and start asking how I was and that the reason he came over to Jonny's was in hope to see me as we hadn't seen each other for over a month. He then informed me that he spotted Graham in west quay and was going to kill the bastard however lost him in the crowd. I am unsure whether to believe him or not. Regardless of that, I still encouraged him to actually kill the cunt if he were to spot him again (due to recent events that I will not talk of). Anyway, I am unsure of how to deal with Callums recent change in heart towards me, seeing as he used to rip shit out of me. Now he's being all nice and sweet. Even told me that I had gotten a tan since and that he couldn't wait to see me in summer with my full blown colour change as I looked hotter when coloured....see how I'm worried here?
Next On The List!
Jess.
Now, here is someone who I have known for just over 8 years. Some people will admire me for this if they know her. Or even met her for that matter. Anyway, we have been good mates (I will not say best mate) for a long time. But all through this time, she has asked for advice which I have given. However she hasn't taken any of it and comes crying to me for help wondering why it all went wrong. Lately, she asked if I could give her a lift to her ex's. JUST A LIFT! What am I, a bloody taxi? The reason she believes I will say yes is because I gave her a lift to his ON MY BIRTHDAY!!! Just so I could bloody see her before she spent the day with him! Now you can't say I didn't try. Thing is that I had already planned something for my birthday with her seeing as I hadn't spoken to her in quite a while. She fobbed me off for this bloke. On my 19th. I spent the day alone til I thought, fuck it, and went to Jonny's where I got some birthday sex! Anyway, she hasn't even gotten me anything for my birthday. My best mate (Biggs, bless you) hasn't gotten me anything due to the fact she has no job and no money BUT she still manages to get me a card AND writes me a letter! A LETTER! For those of you who don't know me, I love letters. They are something for me to keep and re-read when I'm feeling lonely. And it does help! SO! Yes my apparent "good mate" doesn't really appreciate my friendship therefor I will not be so available for her no more. I refuse to give any more advice seeing as she thinks she knows better. I will not be a bloody taxi for her (despite the fact it was just one occasion). Better luck next time Jess.

Next Topic - College and Work.
Quick info for those not in the know, I work in a day nursery with 0 - 5 year olds. However I am only an apprentice and attend Pool college every friday.
SO! I finish end of April, however I don't officially finish til June but I'll stop attending college at the end of April. I still have one more assignment to do and 7 technical units. I have been attending nearly a year and the college has only just decided to give us the notes that the class have been asking for ever since we started. No questions there then why I haven't handed in any units.

That just about does my dragging on for today. Now I must go and do some college work ready for tomoro. As well as email a cousin before I totally forget! Long Live The Weekend - Magners To The Extreme. 3 Litres should about do it for me.

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