Welcome Back My Gothic Twin

By the way, before I go on my ramblings, I'd just like to say that I wasn't wrong about that girl, she is an ignorant fucking cow and I hope she kills herself by OD on anti depressants! Just to be ironic!

Anyway

A little note also to RACHEL GRAY cos I know you fucking read this you stupid cunt -
Would you please. . . JUST FUCK OFF!!!
You think I'm the back stabber and liar?? YOU were the one who fucking lied to her parents, YOU were the one backstabbing Jess to ME!!! YOU think yo'uve got people wrapped around your little finger trying to push me out and get one in on me, but oh no!! It's all back fired and no one wants you around anymore! Why? COS I DONT FUCK WITH PPLS HEADS JUST TO GET WHAT I WANT YOU FUCKING STUPID TWAT!!! HOW FUCKING DUMB CAN YOU GET?!?!?

Don't answer that.

Onto other news. I'm back into Cradle of Filth. They are my fighting music and I can't escape it. Pendulum has worn out its welcome. I can feel myself drifting back into that gothic side of me that wants everything black and deadly. I welcome it with open arms as halloween is just around the corner.

Also I seem to notice that with the seasons, i.e winter, I become more dark in my fashion and sooner or later just completely Goth. And then I lighten up for summer! HA!

Anyway I must get ready for work.

The Plague: Get It. Feed It. Spread It. Bitches.

Back From The Holidays!!

Cyprus was amazing! Spent every day down the beach or at least some part of it, mainly in the afternoon. I went diving twice which was brilliant and I really want to take up the course and do it properly!! We went exploring every night to various bars, the Square Bar being our favourite because the bar man was super cool and gave us free drinks, plus Matt "Elvis" Craig was really funny and probably the most likeable welsh man ever (lol!). We ate out for 4 nights and ate in the other 2, the sun was boiling hot but made the beach even nicer! I went snorkelling every day and twice I saw an octopus! I had to wrestle one to get the shell that I brought home! I saw this big shell and then saw two eyes next to it watching me! As I dived down to get it, he put a tentacle around it and wouldn't let go, I ended dragging him out of his little cave, I couldn't stop as I was floating back up without trying and so the octopus admitted defeat and let go. Greedy buggar, what more could he want with it, he'd already emptied it! Fed the fish with bread and they would follow me for half hour afterwards round the reef just incase I dropped anymore. Picked up numerous starfish which no one else seemed to spot :s I wasn't the only one snorkelling and yet as I swam behind a few, I spotted starfish lightly camoflaged and dived down to pick them up. Cute little creatures. I didnt feel too great when seeing them in the souvenirs shop, dried and coloured and sealed in bags with herbs. They looked so much prettier alive.

Can't wait to go home tomorrow, see the parents and my dragons. And then I'm going for dinner with my best mate Jess, don't really know where we're going yet cos neither of us know what we fancy! Aha! Frankies in castly point looks to be the destination.

Anyway!! Can't stay long, have much to catch up on! ^^

God Dammit

Okay so last time I was a little hasty to judge. Turns out she was given those days off anyway. Argh, blind to the obvious again >< for which I apologise for. What can I say, I was in a bad mood. Ah well, hopefully maybe at some point I'll be able to see for myself. But I still stand by what I said that some people just don't have a good enough reason to be on them happy pills.

I don't know, we'll see.

3 DAYS TIL I GO ON HOLIDAY!!

FUCKING YES!!! I can't fucking wait!! Haven't been on holiday in ages and to be going with Rob, ah it's like a dream coming true!! Seriously, I'd only been with him a couple of months when he asked if I'd go! Last time it was a year before we went away together! And then it was shite cos he didn't wanna go anywhere!! So this time, it will be perfect!! I can't fucking wait!!

YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Don't You Just Hate It When . . .

Someone at work uses some pathetic and really stupid excuse not to come in. And on top of that, isn't it such a coincedence that the week they're off "sick" is the week they wanted to book off couple of weeks earlier but weren't allowed it?

Talk about real fucking obvious.

And I bet they're in London right now.

Also what pissed me off is that they're excuse is "I'm on anti depressants so I can't work" . . .

WHAT A LOAD OF FUCKING BOLLOCKS!!

I'm sorry but you may think you've pulled the wool over people's eyes but sure as hell not mine!!
YOU have NOTHING to be depressed about. Alright so you lost a loved one but she was old and lived a good and fulfilling life. So you dumped your boyfriend, you two were doomed from the start anyway after the amount of break ups in just 2 weeks!! That is still FUCK ALL reason to take anti depressants!!

AND ON TOP OF THAT!!

Why the fuck should it stop you from working?!?! One of the other staff is always on anti depressants but they still come into work!!

Besides, you have no idea what depressed is about. You don't even know the meaning to the word. Now you might turn around and say "well neither do you" but oh people at work KNOW that I've been depressed, far more than you could ever imagine. My art, my stories, my poetry and my scars tell the tale of my depression without me having to say a damned word.

And guess what!! I still didn't have to take anti depressants!!

. . .

Anyway, onto a happier note.

I go away on holiday in 6 days with my drummer boy!! Oh I'm so excited!!! Only got 3 more shifts at work and then I'm AWAY!!!

YEA BABY!!!!